Good News/Bad News

The good news is that after going to the specialist yesterday, my cervix is NOT 3.6cm, but instead a VERY healthy 4.7cm.  I could NOT be happier.


Okay, now the bad news.  You still have a congenital heart defect that is not going anywhere.  On November 29th, I am going to be getting a detailed EKG of your heart.  The doctor wouldn't tell me exactly why they are deciding to do that now, and I'm hoping it is just to rule inconsequential things out, but you just never know.


They still don't know why I've been bleeding so often lately and they are definitely keeping an eye on it.  I think they are afraid of what's called Placental Abruption.  It is kind of scary.  Your Daddy, of course, ever the optimist, is completely confident that no matter what, you are going to be fine.  Your Mommy, of course, the eternal worrier, is scared to death to move too fast in one direction or you might fall out.  ;)  You would think that I wouldn't worry so much.  You are my second baby but what can I say?  I have lived my life in such a way as to not have anything to lose and that has been very true up until Matthew came along and now I have another little person that I will not be able to live without.


It absolutely amazes and shocks me how I can love the two of you so entirely.  I was so worried with having a second baby and wondering how it was going to be possible but just like everyone said, you just do.  One day, you look at your life and realize that there are two very important people in your life now instead of just the one.  It's really a very awesome and wonderful thing.